Wintergirls

I just downloaded Wintergirls online for free.  I am super excited to read it.  I am posting the link for you ladies incase you are interested.  We should read it and discuss.
http://www.4shared.com/get/7nJ3Z2WP/Laurie_Halse_Anderson_-_Winter.html

First Day Back

I have been back for about three or four days now, but today was really the first day that I thought about what I was doing.  I think that made it harder.  Usually I am so busy I forget to eat anyways, but today that was all I could think about.  Thank Ana I was able to control my self some what.  I had part of a salad, a couple bites of an apple and a strawberry and Ice drink I made myself.  A total of about 350 calories.  I am using Livestrong.com to keep track of my calorie intake. They have a great program called the daily plate that you can use to figure out what is in everything you eat. EVEN the recipes you make your self.  It is awesome.  The true test of today will be when I go out with my friends tonight. I have limited myself to two drinks so that I can keep under my 800 calorie goal for this first week.  I think I can do it.  I haven't eaten much so it won't take much to start feeling the alcohol.

It is hard getting used to the stomach cramps again.  But I like to think of the pain as my stomach shrinking and the skinnier me trying to break out.  I am super excited to be back!  I have missed this feeling of rightness.  I will let you know how tonight goes.  Right now I am going to go up 3 flights of stairs and use the laundry up there.

Some Thinspo to keep me on track.



MY MOTIVATIONS

I got this idea from http://thinbition.tumblr.com and it is great!

 My Motivations  ♥

Strikethrough = achieved :)

 

• Your ex roommate cannot be skinnier than you.
• Your best friend cannot be skinnier than you.
• Your ex best friend cannot be skinnier than you. She’s a cunt & will throw it in your face any chance she gets.
• Being one of the skinniest girls at work.
• Your older sister  who has had two babies cannot be skinnier than you. 
• I will fit into my prom dress from senior year by November 2011
• Being the hottest girl on the Island
• Being a hot bitch partying
• Being one of the “hot/pretty/skinny girls” you graduated with who is still hot

Back in Thin

After quitting my job and moving to Mackinac Island, MI for the summer I have lost almost 20lbs!  I have a lot to go to get back to where I was and where I want to be, but my motivation is better than ever.  I see pictures of myself on facebook and I wonder how did I ever let myself get like that.  I used to be the girl who never weighed more than 110 and some how I ballooned up to 178! Disgusting!!  I am going to start posting again and keep you updated on my progress.  I will never get help again with my "problem" it only made it so much worse.


HW:178
LW:103
CW:159
GW:108


I will do this.

Plus I may be moving to Chicago and I will not be the fat girl! I never was until the last year and a half.  I want my thin life back.  I will SUCCEED!