I have been back for about three or four days now, but today was really the first day that I thought about what I was doing. I think that made it harder. Usually I am so busy I forget to eat anyways, but today that was all I could think about. Thank Ana I was able to control my self some what. I had part of a salad, a couple bites of an apple and a strawberry and Ice drink I made myself. A total of about 350 calories. I am using Livestrong.com to keep track of my calorie intake. They have a great program called the daily plate that you can use to figure out what is in everything you eat. EVEN the recipes you make your self. It is awesome. The true test of today will be when I go out with my friends tonight. I have limited myself to two drinks so that I can keep under my 800 calorie goal for this first week. I think I can do it. I haven't eaten much so it won't take much to start feeling the alcohol.
It is hard getting used to the stomach cramps again. But I like to think of the pain as my stomach shrinking and the skinnier me trying to break out. I am super excited to be back! I have missed this feeling of rightness. I will let you know how tonight goes. Right now I am going to go up 3 flights of stairs and use the laundry up there.
Some Thinspo to keep me on track.
I Fucked up big. I only had two drinks at the bar, which is what I had planned on, but then I came home and ate a ton of pretzels and a bag of chili cheese fritos. I hate doing this so I made my self purge which I hate even more. I made my self not take it too far so I didn't mess up my face but I am still unhappy about it. Tomorrow I will do better.
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